7/23/08

clouds

My class is getting a little easier. I really like the prof, he's really funny! Waking up is getting easier too. I'm starting to really really enjoy the sunrise. And the clouds. I never actually see the sun on my drive but the clouds are amazing, pink, gold, grey and white all together with a blue backing; constantly amazing me. A couple days ago I was late and said a little prayer for help--I was thinking of getting there on time, God was thinking of something else though--I went around a curve and was face to face with a whole sky of beautiful pink clouds! *sigh*

One other thing I love about waking up and driving early is the street lights. I get to watch them turn off while I drive! it's so cool! like a little surprise whenever one flips off. They seem to go in a random order as some turn off while others stay on.

I have been making a point to wake up and get going without the aid of caffeine for the last week and a half but I finally made some coffee this morning. The last thing (I can think of right now) that I love about waking up so super early is those first two sips of coffee and the euphoric effect as the fog leaves your mind and your eyes feel like they can see. (yay drugs!). I think if I use coffee all the time this effect might wear off so I probably shouldn't over do it.

I'm not looking forward to driving in the rain tomorrow so hopefully it will rain tonight and I will be free sailing in the morning. whatever happens: keep an eye on those clouds! they're sure to be ominously beautiful.

7/16/08

I heard Jesus is Just Alright by the Doobie Brothers on the radio the this morning. It reminded me of an episode of Geeks and Freaks where the freaks have a party and this one guy starts playing it on the piano. It also got me thinking about religious references in songs. Most great songs have a religious reference of some sort, Paul Simon for example mentions something religious in almost every song but not as blatant as saying "Jesus is just alright with me."

I got into this whole idea of why certain songs pertaining the term "Jesus" get on popular radio while others are only on Christian radio. Why do some songs become contemporary while other are restricted. The Musician's other music is part of it, the Doobie Brothers of course have many other contemporary hits that were on popular radio before Jesus Is Just Alright. It also may be the connotation in the song. The title states that Jesus is just alright, it's not a praise and worship song, simply "I've got no beef with this big guy, he's cool with me" rather than "whoa! Hallelujah! he's amazing" (which reminds me of another religious reference in a song..."Hallelujah I Love Her So").

what about Musicians who are only known for their song that relates to Jesus. What if God Was One of Us is kind of one of those. I'd never heard of Joan Osborne before that song or since (maybe that's just because I don't watch anything in the media where I would have heard something else about her). Some people were also outraged by that song (One line of the Chorus goes "Just a slob like one of us" and many people were appaled that she would compare God's glorious creation as a SLOB *OH MY!*).

Anyway, I had to leave the computer for a long time to help my nephew make lunch so I kind of lost my train of thought on this whole thing. I think the general point was that it is interesting how some songs that specifically focus on religion get air play on popular radio while others are ignored. One other note is that when artists who were strictly Christian branch out to music that are just general love songs (Monk and Nagel come to mind as does Ginny Owens and Jill Philips) why arn't they considered for airplay on popular stations.


...The band Creed comes to mind on that subject, they've switch back and forth between the "Christian" and "Rock" grenres every time they break up or the lead singer gets saved again.

Do you know of any other songs that have blatent religous referances and are/were played on popular radio? Can you name some Christian artists who write music that has a "secular" subject matter in addition to their normal Christian music.

7/9/08

I realized today that with blogspot I don't feel quite comfortable enough to post just a random phrase. I used to use xanga to record memories in a way only I would remember when I looked back at them later. I think those one or two line posts are the reason it was always so hard when I was forced to shut down a blog. To have a huge log of all your memories, everything you felt was important to write down spanning back for a couple years and to have to delete it...strangely painful. is that pathetic?

I wanted to post something about clouds and silver linings but then I thought "no, I'm not on xanga anymore, I can't put up a one line post about clouds and silver linings, that would just be silly."

This has me thinking about all my memories I remember making specific blogs about. Making Peanut Brittle for SHC with the grandmothers who were going to sell it to support the school. I had never made peanut brittle before and the chemical reaction when you put the baking powder into the mix and then have to stir like crazy. I remember feeling the steam from the stove drying out my face and my arm aching from stirring for what seemed like forever.

Other posts I vividly remember have to do with death. After Aunt Alice passed away and Mrs. Donoho. My post about aunt Alice was a memory of the night she fell the broke her hip. Thinking back that was probably one of the scariest moments of my life, sitting and trying to comfort a fallen old woman waiting for an ambulance and knowing there's nothing in the world I can do. I'm doing a photo montage for a girl who was named after someone named Alice, I bet her Alice was as nice as mine (but mine made better pound cake hands down).

I remember posts about purple feet and mulberry trees. posts when I had gone crazy and was putting myself back together. posts about sitting under a tiny tree in our front yard watching cars.

but really all I wanted to say is that I had a beautiful drive home and clouds are wonderful. (not to mention they have silver linings).

7/4/08

thoughts on drinking

I'm still kind of confused about all the blogspot settings but I suppose I will get there.

I went to a party last night (it's only going to be "last night" for ten more minutes so I better write quickly) and I came up once again with my aversion to alcohol. The party was at a particular friends house where drinking is just a regular thing. I realized once again that I have no desire to get drunk or drink excessively. I think this is really strange, probably because there have been serious low points in my life where I really did want to get drunk. Maybe the aversion is because my mom has constantly told me that I WILL become an alcoholic if I drink, ever, at all. I think more likely it's the fact that I've researched such a wide variety of drugs and I know that alcohol is a poison (literally). Plus it tastes awful! I complained about the taste to my siblings one day last week and they quickly recommended four or five drinks I should try.

I consumed three/four daiquiris at the party and one "Dirty Turtle" (an invented drink that tastes too much like alcohol for me to like) which I think Becky may have given me in a moment of forgetfulness about my age. I watered it down with Sprite every few sips and waited for the ice to melt until it was drinkable.

I think, for me, the "good" parts of drinking don't out weigh the taste. drinking is so self destructive and represents (to me anyway) being so unhappy with myself or my situation that I need to use alcohol to cope with other issues. Maybe I read too much about addiction in middle school?

This is just something that's been on my mind lately. I don't condone excessive alcohol use but I respect everyone's right to do whatever they want as long as they don't harm other individuals so feel free to keep on drinking. I also know that drinking can be used as a relaxing agent in non-destructive environments. personally I'm more fun when I'm high on Dr. Pepper than I imagine I would be drunk.

7/3/08

hello world!

ok, so I'm going to start actually using this. I had forgotten it was even here actually and tried to make a new account with the same name. I was totally freaked out when somebody (me) had already taken HarmonyMelodyPress.

I was trying to blog on xanga, a blog site that I have used for about four years (it has been going downhill for the last couple months) when I logged in and was immediately sent to a "take this survey so we can make money off of you page" disgusted I decided to take the blogspot plunge. I'm hoping to find it a lot nicer here.

that's all for now. I have to actually work before I go to school this morning or else I will be one step further into the poor college student personality I already portray.