thoughts on drinking

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I went to a party last night (it's only going to be "last night" for ten more minutes so I better write quickly) and I came up once again with my aversion to alcohol. The party was at a particular friends house where drinking is just a regular thing. I realized once again that I have no desire to get drunk or drink excessively. I think this is really strange, probably because there have been serious low points in my life where I really did want to get drunk. Maybe the aversion is because my mom has constantly told me that I WILL become an alcoholic if I drink, ever, at all. I think more likely it's the fact that I've researched such a wide variety of drugs and I know that alcohol is a poison (literally). Plus it tastes awful! I complained about the taste to my siblings one day last week and they quickly recommended four or five drinks I should try.

I consumed three/four daiquiris at the party and one "Dirty Turtle" (an invented drink that tastes too much like alcohol for me to like) which I think Becky may have given me in a moment of forgetfulness about my age. I watered it down with Sprite every few sips and waited for the ice to melt until it was drinkable.

I think, for me, the "good" parts of drinking don't out weigh the taste. drinking is so self destructive and represents (to me anyway) being so unhappy with myself or my situation that I need to use alcohol to cope with other issues. Maybe I read too much about addiction in middle school?

This is just something that's been on my mind lately. I don't condone excessive alcohol use but I respect everyone's right to do whatever they want as long as they don't harm other individuals so feel free to keep on drinking. I also know that drinking can be used as a relaxing agent in non-destructive environments. personally I'm more fun when I'm high on Dr. Pepper than I imagine I would be drunk.