I realized today that with blogspot I don't feel quite comfortable enough to post just a random phrase. I used to use xanga to record memories in a way only I would remember when I looked back at them later. I think those one or two line posts are the reason it was always so hard when I was forced to shut down a blog. To have a huge log of all your memories, everything you felt was important to write down spanning back for a couple years and to have to delete it...strangely painful. is that pathetic?

I wanted to post something about clouds and silver linings but then I thought "no, I'm not on xanga anymore, I can't put up a one line post about clouds and silver linings, that would just be silly."

This has me thinking about all my memories I remember making specific blogs about. Making Peanut Brittle for SHC with the grandmothers who were going to sell it to support the school. I had never made peanut brittle before and the chemical reaction when you put the baking powder into the mix and then have to stir like crazy. I remember feeling the steam from the stove drying out my face and my arm aching from stirring for what seemed like forever.

Other posts I vividly remember have to do with death. After Aunt Alice passed away and Mrs. Donoho. My post about aunt Alice was a memory of the night she fell the broke her hip. Thinking back that was probably one of the scariest moments of my life, sitting and trying to comfort a fallen old woman waiting for an ambulance and knowing there's nothing in the world I can do. I'm doing a photo montage for a girl who was named after someone named Alice, I bet her Alice was as nice as mine (but mine made better pound cake hands down).

I remember posts about purple feet and mulberry trees. posts when I had gone crazy and was putting myself back together. posts about sitting under a tiny tree in our front yard watching cars.

but really all I wanted to say is that I had a beautiful drive home and clouds are wonderful. (not to mention they have silver linings).